On the day we met I was a mere childish fool that didn't understand life's challenges. I was that kind a guy who just lived life as there were no tomorrow, an end of each after each passing of time.
I told myself that I won't be able to live the life I always wanted, but wanting something is as cliché as most hair do's, so in that way that I created my own life in the liking of my own, living my own sort-of fairytale.
People say that you are not supposed to change who you are, what you are and believe in yourself and others... I have. I have changed in so many ways that it was as shocking as the neon yellow in my paint. I did not realize it... one never does.
It just happened out of the blue, in a split second my fairy world became full of reality, changing it into another story... a love story. There is so much to say, but how to say it in such a way that my brain doesn't work overtime and burn a few brain cells off which they are so important to me... to say
I have become that kind a guy that wishes the best for all, a fairytale, a world where fairies and beasts can grow and say “hi” without breaking a nail... one that is free. I want to have fun, all the time . I want to sing and dance, throw my hair in circles when I'm showering and to love doing it even when I'm making a fool out of myself. I want to be in that moment where the silence is so silent that the sun itself is blinded .
Free, it is strange the word. When are you free? When are you free to do what you want? When are you free to do exactly what you want, without change? Free – complimentary, at no cost, liberated, open – this is “free”. I am that kind a guy that makes you smile without seeking payment. I am that kind a guy that gives you the world, and expects a smile. I am that kind a guy who smiles back when you smile at me. I am that kind a guy who stays... without charging overtime.
With you, I am free. Free from the world that bounds us all. I am at joy, loose from darkness' grip, free to express. With you I am me, you are you, and we are us... together, part of each other, in the same circle, side by side. I am yours, you are mine, but we are not for sale, compelled to do, obligated... we are us.
What I just said made no sense to me until I saw your face in front of me. Those eyes move me like none have before. So much expression upon it, that makes me go gaga. I am in love, love with, frantically unexplainably lovable... with you.
You are my fairytale, my world where the fairy and the beast gets married, but fights to get there, and we did. For such a long time it seemed that fairy world would have to come to an end, but now, a new beginning has begun, a new chapter... a new life.
I am that kind a guy... ... that says yes... ...that will say yes... ... from this day... ...onwards...
I am that kind a guy that loves you till the bitter end!